Fuzzy Handcuffs, Girlfriend, Adventures in Awkward, and Dysphoria

SO my girlfriend and I are gonna have fucking awesome sex lives. She's turned on by rough sex XD when she said that, I was turned on so much oh my god. Like. Long distance sucks for that shit, man. Soon though. Soon. Soon. Soon. Soon. Soon. 

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So today was really weird. I was watching those vines on facebook and stuff, and like, just this one guy was doing this... I don't even know how to explain. But it was hilarious. And also, this awkward guy kept coming up our driveway, sniffing our fence, then walking away. Then doing that again. Like. What the hell just happened there? He looked like he jumped out of duck dynasty.

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So I swear to god, my voice is getting deeper. I haven't been taking hormones for gender reassignment processes, but I swear. Its slowly getting deeper on its own. I actually love it, its helping with dysphoria in other things and slowly making it easier to deal with how long I have to wait until I can actually officially start HRT and top and bottom surgeries. 

I am starting to get worse with dysphoria though. I think its affecting my moods and my relationship with my girlfriend and friends. Especially during that special time of month. It's hard to deal with it. It's always been hard, it always felt wrong, but ever since I stopped pushing down the feeling "I should be male, not female", it's gotten worse. The feeling of having to accept something part of you that you feel shouldn't be there, is horrible. But thanks to my girlfriend, I've been better about it. She's so supportive about everything ;-; I'm so fucking glad I have her.
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DDG (Daily Dose of Girlfriend)

She's absolutely perfect, amazing, beautiful, adorable, kind, lovable, sweet, caring, and funny. She always makes my day and says cute adorable things to pick me up when I'm down. She's the perfect person and I never want to lose her. Ever. Just thinking about that makes me sad ;_; 



~Jason